flame of passion

曾几何时看过许多人跌得伤痕累累。。。

曾几何时在暗讽别人跌得伤痕累累。。。

曾几何时自己也跌得伤痕累累。。。

曾几何时看着别人被朋友插得伤痕累累。。。

曾几何时看着朋友为了爱情而伤痕累累。。。

曾几何时看着朋友为了友情而伤痕累累。。。

曾几何时看着家人为了一头家而伤痕累累。。。

曾几何时看着父母保护孩子而伤痕累累。。。

曾几何时因为自己想太多而伤痕累累。。。

曾几何时因为自己什么都不想而伤痕累累。。。

曾几何时为了面子而弄到自己伤痕累累。。。

曾几何时为了周遭的人不吵架而伤痕累累。。。

曾几何时为了平息干戈而伤痕累累。。。

曾几何时为了自己要夺取的东西伤痕累累。。。

曾几何时为了挣几个钱而伤痕累累。。。

曾几何时为了享受快乐而伤痕累累。。。

曾几何时为了安抚别人而伤痕累累。。。

曾几何时为了逃避现实而伤痕累累。。。

曾几何时为了鼓起勇气面对事实而伤痕累累。。。

曾几何时看着别人不开心而伤痕累累。。。

曾几何时。。。。

不想再曾几何时了。。。。

不想再伤痕累累。。。。

更不想看着身边的人。。。

伤痕累累。。。。

我不是个完美的人
有许多的事情，我希望我从没做过
但，我不断地学习
我其实并不想那样对你
所以在我走之前我必须澄清一些事
那就是我要你知道

我找到我自己的理由
来改变我自己的理由
一个可以从新开始的理由
那个理由就是你

我伤害了你，我很抱歉
有些事，是每天一定要陪伴我在一起的
和我造成对你的伤害
我都希望把它们一起带走
作一个可以抓住你的眼泪的人
所以我需要你听我说

我找到我自己的理由
来改变我自己的理由
一个可以从新开始的理由
那个理由就是你

我不是个完美的人
有许多的事情，我希望我从没做过
所以在我走之前我必须澄清一些事
那就是我要你知道

我找到一个可以告诉你的理由
一个你从来不知道我的另一面的理由
一个为我做了的事情的理由
那就是你

only one will noe what this mean…

maybe none at all…

i dunno when u will read this…

and i dunno whether u understand this or not…

i am in a grayish area….

an area which cannot be determined and clarified…

At last… i found the satisfaction in teaching….

i am so so so happy after my class, coz i successfully deliver the knowledge to the student and i feel so relieved…

a week ago, i was so tensed up and frightened of the class, this is because i think that i don’t do enough preparation for my class. and after the class last week, again, i cried…. haha… so teruk right…??? this time i cry not because i am tensed up, this is because i feel so so relieved after that class, i was thinking that, ‘FINALLY…..’

In order to have this satisfaction,

i prepared my teaching material until 3am,

u might question me why i do wan to prepare earlier?

Ans: I have no time since i am still studying and i have plenty of homework and lab reports to be done.

Not much big surprises this week, i mean in my working environment. This is still a place for me to widen up my mind and my knowledge.

And i hope i can continue to do this…. well…..

finally, i COLLAPSED….

i thought that i can go through this….

but eventually i failed and burst up….

i used to be very happy working at there…..

and i’m still happy to work there….

but somehow i found a bit stressful… for me…..

Maybe some people will think that actually i dun hv to work so hard coz ur studying now….

but i was like…. NOPE… i enjoy working there… and i can feed myself, dun hv to take from my parents… this is what i’m proud of…

i always ask other people to be tough, no wonder what challenges ahead…. but i failed to apply this on myself…

then, i CRIED… when talking to my mother on the phone…

coz i feel that i am going to collapse at that time, and i need to talk to someone to soothe myself….

i thought that i can balance my study and my work… and i am still working hard to achieve that mission… but i need some time… CAN U ALL GIVE ME SOME TIME…????

WILLIAM ANG IS FAMOUS OF SMART AND TOUGH DE…

rili…. give me some time… i dun wan my tears… slip down on my cheek again….

BE TOUGH… WILLIAM ANG..!!!!